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Has It Really Been A Year?

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Most of the time, when bloggers put up a post after a long delay, they start off by apologizing. This isn’t something I am going to do. In fact, I’m proud of myself for not posting. Weird, I know.

A year ago today, I asked my husband to leave myself and the girls. Our life together wasn’t making either of us happy and it was starting to affect the kids. Even at the young age of one and four, the girls were fully aware of being in a home without joy. As much as I tried to make life great for them and myself, it become very clear that you can’t fool anyone. You can’t fool your kids, friends, family and certainly not your own mind. On March 27th, 2013 I decided to make myself a priority and this took a lot of change. A LOT of change.

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My Darling Baby

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My Darling Baby,
I’m sorry this took me so long to write. People have told me that time heals wounds and that things get easier. Although losing you hurts less now, I think of you every single day.
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Dating as a Single Parent.

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Being a single parent is hard enough, add in trying to meet someone and it’s nearly impossible. Top that off with having been out of the dating pool for 14 years and it becomes a heck of a lot of trail and error. I have learned some big lessons though all of this, ones that I would like to share with you. Ones that I may have to refer back to in the future. Continue reading →

My First Crush and Killer Dwarves

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I could say that my first crushes were George Michael (I was so upset when I found out he was gay), Ricky Schroder (I loved Silver Spoons. I can still remember my favorite episode. Ricky gets dumped by a girl and he squishes chocolate eclairs in his hands while their song plays on the radio. Yes, the one and only Broken Wings by Mr. Mister) and Tony Hawk (No additional information needed). But, my first REAL crush. Like, a boy in real life was Steven Hrushka. Yes, I am using his real name. Maybe he will find this post and it will make him laugh.

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A love letter to my baby

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My Dearest Azalee:
A year ago today, you came into this world. 9 months before that, you were just a tiny little bean in my body.

When I found out I was pregnant with you, I was cautiously excited. I went to bed every night, rubbed my tummy and told you how much I already loved you and asked you to find a way to be extra sticky.

The doctors sent us to an early ultrasound and the tech went right to your tiny beating heart. I must have asked the lady 20 times if she was sure everything was okay. Each time she told us you looked perfect, more tears formed. Happy tears.

You forced me to eat watermelon, Kraft Dinner, bubble tea and Pizza Pops. The cravings were insane. You were stubborn even before you were born.

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Welcome to the Big Girls Club

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When I see a picture of a newborn baby on Facebook, I’ll click to read the comments, even if I don’t know the parents. I love seeing pictures of wee people, reading their name and tiny pieces of their birth story.

A couple of weeks ago, I saw a comment under photo of a new baby boy that said: “Welcome to the Big Girl’s Club, (insert mom’s name here)!”.

At that moment, I really wish I knew the parties involved. I really, really wanted to write a comment about how ridiculous it was to think that having a child made you a “Big Girl” and on the flip side, not having a child makes you lesser of a woman.

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2012 in Review: Babies, Kindness and Running

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I can’t believe 2012 is coming to a close. It was an absolutely amazing year full of so many great moments. I figured I would take a moment to reflect on them.

January
January was a month of change. I started getting ready for our new baby who was due in March. Tenesea helped:

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Derek also became a year older and a year wiser.

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I Feel Like the Walls Are Caving In

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I feel like the walls are closing in on me. Literally. My 1200 square foot home is completely full of stuff. It is completely overwhelming which is making me feel like I need to buy a bigger house.

I grew up in row houses, apartments, single-wides, double-wides and finally a house about the size of the one I’m in now. Our family squished ourselves into some confined homes, but I never felt this way.

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What Does a Feminist Look Like?

My brain has been squishy all week. In fact, I’ve learned so much this week that I believe my brain has leaked other information out. Seriously. I have been struggling with simple math today and I’m blaming it on feminists.

I hear the word ‘feminist’ being thrown around a lot lately and honestly, I didn’t know what it truly meant until this week.

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The Start of Something Huge

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I’ll let you in on a little secret: I do my best thinking in the shower. Something about the heat, water and solitude ignites my brain.

Last week, I had an epiphany moment in the shower. I need a new fitness goal. A goal that is even loftier than running a 5k. One that is going to keep me focused for more than 9 weeks. Something so insane, it scares every part of my being. It came to me as I poured shampoo into my hand.

I am going to train and run a half-marathon in September 2013.

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