Enjoy the Silence is one of my favourite Depeche Mode songs. It’s a breathtakingly beautiful song, and although I know the words off by heart and spent years singing them, I never really understood them.
2015 started off as I watched the ball drop in Times Square from my living room. I had a glass of wine in my hand and two amazing little girls sleeping in the room at the end of the hall. My heart felt full.
After years of not traveling because my ex-husband liked home, stability, and routine more than adventure, 2013 to 205 made up for lost time and helped me regain my wanderlust and urge to see the world. I went to Puerto Vallarta, Jasper, Osoyoos, Toronto, and Austin this year.
Letter to the Editor – public and media, Chief of Police, and Mayor Iveson
As we are sure you are well aware, Edmonton police responded to over 7,000 calls related to domestic violence in 2014. That’s over 19 calls a day, every day. Across Canada, we lose on average 2 women a week to domestic murder. We write to you today as attendees of a support group for wornen who have faced abuse and control in intimate relationships offered through the city of Edmonton. We write to you to as mothers, wives, daughters and sisters as neighbours, colleagues, and friends and not as the mere numbers that represent these statistics.
I can’t believe I just went 21 days without alcohol, coffee, or gluten, and CHOSE to do this to myself.
Yes, you read that right. I made a conscious decision to go on a liver cleanse that would take me away from the things I love the most—wine, coffee, pasta, and pizza. I made a conscious decision to test my willpower in order to test what I’m eating, how I’m eating it, and to really pay attention to my body.
A month ago, I was leaving on a trip to Mexico to watch my dear friend Bill marry his best friend—Zoie. I’d been planning the trip since their engagement and there was no way I was going to miss it!
Today, December 20th, 2014 is a day I’ll never forget. Today is the day that I found finalized divorce papers in my mailbox. Some would find this heartbreaking, but I feel relieved, happy, and finally in control of my life. For the first time in 16 years, I feel free.
I never thought I would get here. I tried many times to get out of my abusive marriage, but always took him back. He constantly told me I couldn’t do it on my own. I couldn’t look after two very young children and myself. I wasn’t strong enough or smart enough and I needed him. He threatened me by saying that he would take my kids away and that no court would let me keep them because I didn’t have financial backing from family members. He was wrong on all accounts. I was strong enough, I was smart enough, and I didn’t need financial backing. I just needed a plan.
My normal routine is: get up, put robe on, let dog out, make breakfasts/lunches and then go downstairs to shower. On this Monday morning, I walked down the stairs and stepped into a giant puddle of water a couple of inches deep. There was water EVERYWHERE.
My basement was flooded.
A couple of weeks after I asked my husband to leave, I had an Akashic reading with my friend Tara.
As she entered my home, she said I needed to slow down. She had been in-tune with my energy for hours and my anxiety was forcing her to clean. That’s the fun thing about my anxiety, I clean until I can’t clean any more and then clean again. It’s easier for me to move my hands than listen to my thoughts.