Birthdays have a huge significance to me. It’s how I see the start to a new year. Don’t get me wrong, I’ll drink Prosecco and hang out with my kids or chill with my friends on New Year’s Eve, but it just doesn’t feel like a big shift for me. Not like my birthday does.
I used to think that women in abusive relationships were covered in bruises, scratches and welts. They were weak, scared and shook a lot. At least that’s what my mom looked like to me when I was a child.
I always told myself I would NEVER end up in an abusive relationship like mother. I’m too strong, too independent and too wise beyond my years. I’d never let a man treat me like that.
Frozen: the movie I’ve seen at least 30 times and the soundtrack plays non-stop when my girls are in the car. Let’s just say I can bust out any Frozen song on cue and I’ve made my own Do You Want to Build a Snowman words including: “Do you want to poke your eyes out? Or maybe slit your wrists?”.
I took down my online dating profiles last week. Did I meet someone? Well, I met a lot of people, but no, I’m still single.
The past 5 months have been hilarious, sad, fun and frustrating at the same time. In the beginning, I was beyond flattered that I was getting messages and that men were interested in me at all. Even the 25 year-old with MILF fantasies.
I went out on dates and they were always entertaining.
My Darling Baby,
I’m sorry this took me so long to write. People have told me that time heals wounds and that things get easier. Although losing you hurts less now, I think of you every single day.
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Being a single parent is hard enough, add in trying to meet someone and it’s nearly impossible. Top that off with having been out of the dating pool for 14 years and it becomes a heck of a lot of trail and error. I have learned some big lessons though all of this, ones that I would like to share with you. Ones that I may have to refer back to in the future. Continue reading →
I could say that my first crushes were George Michael (I was so upset when I found out he was gay), Ricky Schroder (I loved Silver Spoons. I can still remember my favorite episode. Ricky gets dumped by a girl and he squishes chocolate eclairs in his hands while their song plays on the radio. Yes, the one and only Broken Wings by Mr. Mister) and Tony Hawk (No additional information needed). But, my first REAL crush. Like, a boy in real life was Steven Hrushka. Yes, I am using his real name. Maybe he will find this post and it will make him laugh.
I spend a lot of time trying to find silver linings in situations. It’s the biggest task of an optimist. You are constantly struggling for something to hold onto. Something that makes the pain seem less and the hurt go away. Something that will drag you out of the darkness when you need it. The problem with that is, sometimes you need the darkness.
A couple of weeks ago, I was sitting in Roast working. Yes, actually working. It sure is nice to be able to grab your laptop, an iced Americano and a spot in the sunlight to inspire some creativity. On this day though, my brand new laptop kept shutting on and off. It did this for about a minute and a half before I finally realized what was going on.
I was giving a whole lot of Reike to a friend that was close to the building. I called her to see if she was okay and asked her to allow it to go where it needed to and to allow it to help. A couple minutes later, I got a text message from her asking if it was better now. It was.
This is a normal occurrence for me. Well, that’s not the whole truth. I did shut down all of the energy coming to me and from me as a defence mechanism for quite some time, but that’s behind me now. If you don’t know what Reike is, it’s based on the premise that energy can not be created nor destroyed. I have the ability to tap into the energy around me to use it to heal or help others. Sometimes, I call on it and sometimes, like the instance above, it just starts flowing out of my head and hands. I can’t control it. It’s not painful or uncomfortable for me at all, I’m just a channel. I do wish it wouldn’t mess with my electronics though. Pretty much anything I touch can shut down or act really strange without warning. I’ve never totally wrecked anything though. I just cause surges.